Yesterday’s party was very nice, I had a great time. Unfortunately the store where my boyfriend works got robbed just a couple hours before midnight, so that spoiled some of the party mood… At least nothing serious happened, he’s okay.
2013 has been a year of many changes; what strikes me as the biggest change is that I’ve learnt to take better care of myself. Last year I was in a bad place, and I didn’t really care what happened to me as long as I could temporarily forget about the pain. I was physically unwell, too, and it wasn’t until it got critical that I finally realized that illnesses don’t go away just because I refuse to acknowledge them. I’d like to believe that I’ve improved in that aspect. Accepting help is extremely difficult for me, but at least I try my best.
Right now I feel that I need to re-evaluate my choices, and really think about what I’d like to do in the future. For a long time, I’ve just shut my eyes and continued on the only path I know of, and there are other options to consider. It’s like I’m making things hard for myself on purpose. It doesn’t have to be so difficult, does it?